Random lines

He was showing her his childhood pics – on her request.
“You were so cute –love that curly mop. U turned into such a freak”
“Don’t call me that”
“F-r-e-a-k”
“I said don’t call me that”
“What will u do?”
“I will kiss you.”
She stared at him and let it out slowly and softly, “freak”.

Of late you prefer to get off the car with a hurried kiss and a warm goodbye and take confident steps towards the school gate, one hand clutching the small lunch bag. I watch you till you disappear into the crowd.

As your selfhood gets more pronounced you leave me feeling tender with memories of a tiny little bundle being dropped off at the day care...tearful goodbyes ... joyous reunions at pick up time...surge of emotions as i held you close to me just as it was the first time.

Time to step back a bit and savour these moments before they are gone in a wink.

The wait

Battered I stand at your door, knocking timidly
Waiting anxiously for your footsteps
There is darkness all around and in my heart

Wisecrack

You fall in love just once
every other time you just imitate.

It hurts no more

It hurts no more
Just a dull ache in your heart
A choking in your throat
You know the feeling will pass
Ease away with tears
It hurts no more
When you're ‘comfortably numb’.

Once more

Deafening sound
Acrid smell
Mangled bodies
Anguished voices
Shattered glass
A slipper here a bag there
Scurrying feet
Smell of fear
Once more ....

Ode to you

Each day when I am alone, I close my eyes and try to feel your embrace, now that you are one with the universe. I could not mourn your death as I was completely caught up in my own life. You were my friend, my comfort, a beautiful part of my childhood. You gave me selflessly. You never judged me and you taught me well. You were an inspiration - not only to me but to so many. I will forever remember and cherish each and every of those glorious moments spent at your place. I cannot ever thank you enough for touching my life.